The Never Ending Q's

No power even to think, I rather sit somewhere and rest, I wish I could be able to find a way to get rid of these Never Ending Questions.

How many fall downs are enough for someone to change the way?

How many times should someone forgive?

What is the best way not to like others?

What is the best way to be able to hate?

Like I told before, people think I have an exciting and happy life, with lots of activities. It’s been a while that I’ve been in a hard challenge with myself to change things in a way that I want. All I want is a normal life. I don’t need others’ respect; I just want to feel happiness continuously, I don’t want to let “small people” to grab my happiness and fall me in a situation that I am currently in,

But, the end of the story is clear, as far as I can’t find the answers to those questions, as far as I believe in giving chances to the others, as far as I am living with positives thoughts about others, I will not be able to change my situation. People will use, test, leave and forget!

If I could change I would,
To get the pain I would,
To trace every wrong move that I made I would.
If I could …